Current mood:

tired

Back From the Post Office and Paying My Rent
I wonder if this journal is going to come off as rather mundane. Afterall, what it is I'm doing is writing about what I'm doing from moment to moment, and I lead a rather sedate life.

So I'm back from the post office, and tomorrow I have to catch up my checkbook and catch up the rest of my bills.

I was having a hard time paying my bills this last week or so. Not because I didn't have the money, but because I was depressed and it was hard to discipline myself and sit myself down and take care of this chore. I wanted to escape instead to watching videos or surfing on the Internet.

Why was I depressed? I want better things for my son and it is not happening as fast as I want it to happen. Plus, I haven't been sleeping much lately. As everyone knows, one becomes more prone to depression when there are snores that need to be snored.

When I do sleep it is on nights I take Melatonin, a natural dietary supplement. With that deep sleep though it added to my depression! Can you believe it! I'd wake up almost well rested, yet there would be the blues as my constant morning companion.

So there you have it. I'd get easily depressed partially from lack of sleep, and then when I'd take something to make me sleep well, I'd be depressed in the morning from that.

This all lead to a little experiment I tried Friday night. Normally I was taking one whole pill of melatonin a night. Well on Friday I cut the pill in half and that seemed to be the exact dosage I need. I slept seven and a half hours! And I woke up feeling well rested. I woke up feeling grand!

But last night I didn't take any Melatonin and I slept just three hours. Rats!

So here I sit. It is practically midnight. And I should be in bed catching up my Z's. I took another half a pill of Melatonin tonight and I hope it helps put me under and it keeps me under.